Monday, December 9, 2013

Fighting Redemption by Kate McCarthy

Posted by miss fifi at Monday, December 09, 2013

I-Don't-Understand-Why-People-Do-Certain-Stuff! Stars.


So many high ratings..So many are gushing..So many are praising.. But guess what? I'm Sorry fellas, I beg to differ. ;)

My feeble two stars won't be able to beat the many glowing 4/5 stars that the book managed to snatch but..I am not trying. But lets see what my problems are, shall we? (Keep in mind that I'm not gonna filter the spoilers this time because I'm not in the mood to do so *lazy mode*)


Since I am pretty much a very OVERdramatic girl, I have stages which defined my rating ( yeah, I'm referring to the somehow-seems-feebler two stars rating ).


This stage was brought to me by the part where Fin lostgave her virginity to other guy. I was left speechless by this for approximately TWO minutes before start cursing her for more than TWO minutes. Don't worry, I cursed Ryan as well so it's not me being sexist. Excuse me my dear, but I don't f*cking understand why it can't be Ryan when they both were freaking in love with each other. I get that it's not really a big deal actually, most heroines that I have met were non virgins..But what pissed the hell out of me in the book is, the SEX being so detailed. The heroine having sex with another man is a big NOfor me! It's like imagining your FRIENDS having sex, SO F*CKING UNCOMFORTABLE!


This stage was brought to me by the part where FinREJECTED Ryan when he wanted to try a relationship with her with an excuse of it not being easy. Cue in my"W.T.F?". This didn't bode well with me, at ALL. Yeah, it wasn't easy but her using that excuse made me feel like strangling her to death (repeatedly) because her trying to love her boyfriend was not f*cking easy too, but she f*cking chose that over trying things with Ryan. You see, she had a choice of breaking A heart (her boyfriend's), but instead of breaking one, she aimed for three (pretty ambitious aren't we?), hers (she loved Ryan), Ryan's (he loved Fin) and her boyfriend's (he knew she didn't love him). You see my point? Instead of being SELFISH, she became UBER-SELFISH.


At this stage I think, I exploded. (the explosion is probably worse than thus that happen in wars). This stage was brought to me by the I-Love-You-But-I-Can't-Have-You-So-I'll-Fuck-Other-People-That-I-Don't-Love-While-Loving-You dance they both did.Kill. Me. Now.


That's it. I am done with this book. And trust me, the soldier thing didn't work to cover the frustrating parts for me.


p/s: It's me and my dear Roksana against the WORLD :/


UPDATE #1: My stalking skill is NOT that useless ;)


Later that morning after their workout and shower, Jake fell asleep on the couch. Feeling at a loss with nothing but time on his hands, Ryan wandered down the hall towards Fin’s room. She was sitting at a little study nook in the corner, laptop open with one foot resting on her chair. She was wearing a tank top and a little pair of shorts. Leaning up against the doorframe, he couldn’t tear his eyes away from those long, delectable legs.

As though sensing his presence, she turned in her chair. He forced his eyes upwards, catching a sexy flush fill her cheeks at his blatant perusal.

“Morning, Ryan.” She took off her black framed reading glasses and tossed them on the desk.

“Morning, Fin,” he replied.

Against his better judgement, Ryan pushed away from the door and walked farther into the room. Fin hadn’t changed at all and neither had his desire for her. His heart kicked over when she met his eyes. He knew everything he was feeling right now was written all over him, but he couldn’t seem to shut it off.

Her eyelids fluttered closed and she whispered, “Why now?”

Ryan took a deep breath. “I don’t know,” he replied honestly.

He shouldn’t still be feeling this way after so many years. Why was he doing this to her, and to himself? It was better for everyone if he stayed away like he was supposed to.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have come. I’ll go stay at the barracks.” He turned to leave.

“Ryan!” she called out. Scrambling out of the chair, she grabbed his arm as he was halfway out the door.

“Fin,” he warned, looking down at her hand pointedly.

She took a step closer and he breathed her in, her scent like jasmine on a hot summer’s day. He was surprised when he looked into her eyes and saw anger burning hotly in their depths.

“Six years, Ryan. Do you know how hurt I was, each day passing by and getting nothing—not even a note or an email? I didn’t just lose you. I lost my brother too. Both of you left me, and I was okay with that. I understood that this was what you needed to do, so I moved on. I built a life that doesn’t include you. That was what I had to do.” She paused and raised a shaky hand to cup his cheek. “I’d have given you my entire heart if you’d only asked, but it’s not yours now. It’s not yours.”

Ryan closed his eyes, agony for losing what was never his rose in his chest until he felt strangled by it. He placed his hand over hers, holding it there until she tugged it away.

“You’re right,” Fin told him. “You should stay on the barracks … but I don’t want you to. Damn you, Ryan,” she whispered fiercely. “I don’t want you to.”

Ryan used his bulk to crowd her against the wall until there was no room for her to move. Leaning one hand against the wall, he grabbed her hip with the other. Her breathing rose rapidly and he leaned in, ducking his head until their mouths hovered a mere breath apart.

“Why can’t I force myself to leave?” He rested his forehead against hers and closed his eyes. “I hurt too. For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see. You were the best thing in my life—so sweet and innocent, and so goddamn tempting.” His hand strayed from her hip and slid down to grip her ass. He swallowed the groan. “I stayed away so you could move on.”


Hmm..can we..umm..go freaking fast forward the day to DECEMBER 2ND????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

No? Okay.

Lets just stare at the cover (thank God that it's not ugly!) and read the blurb (lets just memorize it for the release day!) for the thousandth time.


Ryan Kendall is broken. He understands pain. He knows the hand of violence and the ache of loss. He knows what it means to fail those who need you. Being broken doesn’t stop him wanting the one thing he can’t have; Finlay Tanner. Her smile is sweet and her future bright. She’s the girl he grew up with, the girl he loves, the girl he protects from the world, and from himself.

At nineteen, Ryan leaves to join the Australian Army. After years of training he becomes an elite SAS soldier and deploys to the Afghanistan war. His patrol undertakes the most dangerous missions a soldier can face. But no matter how far he runs, or how hard he fights, his need for Finlay won’t let go.

Returning home after six years, one look is all it takes to know he can’t live without her. But sometimes love isn’t enough to heal what hurts. Sometimes people like him can’t be fixed, and sometimes people like Finlay deserve more than what’s left.

This is a story about war and the cost of sacrifice. Where bonds are formed, and friendships found. Where those who are strong, fall hard. Where love is let go, heartache is born, and heroes are made. Where one man learns that the hardest fight of all, is the fight to save himself.



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